Sometimes I feel like I'm in the waiting room of life. A little lost just waiting to find my own direction. It's tough because you are unsure of which path to take. What if you choose the wrong one? What if you waste your time going down something you felt was the right path? It just gets frustrating when you go down these paths alone. You have to muster up the courage to not give up and keep going and remind yourself why you are doing this.
There are days when I do want to quit and go to something more familiar. Go do something "Normal" with my life. Go out, meet someone, get married, have my white picket fence and three kids and a dog playing in the yard. Don't get me wrong there is nothing wrong with that lifestyle I think its wonderful. And part of me wants a snippet of that "normalcy" but, which part do I want? I know I want the family part. It's what's most appealing to me. I want to someday have a house filled with noise and laughter and all be it chaos. I want a close knit family.
But, I myself want to lead by example. To show my children if you have a dream, desire and down right need you must follow it. Even if it goes against what society might coin as "normal". If you are lucky enough to figure out what you want to be when you grow up you better go for it. That desire better be just setting your heart on fire and make you crazy if you don't do it. Because without that passion, fire and drive you will surrender. You will give in and just take the easy route. The art of just getting by. The art of existing and not really living. I want to show them that people are going to tell you "NO" or "You will never succeed, or do that" doesn't mean you have to listen. Unless it's their parents saying no to something completely immoral.
So, I guess if you find yourself in the waiting room of life just bursting at the seams make your presence known! Make the journey and the waiting as fun and as educational as possible. For i have found in the waiting we receive humble patience. so when the opportunity of a path presents itself you will have humble courage and extreme desire to walk that path alone hand in hand with God!
